We are not done.

Owen's stent removal surgery was on Friday. We expected to be done as far as urology surgeries after that. We are not done. I don't have all of the info about the next steps, but here is what I do know.

Dr. Gazak did a cystoscope to see what was going on in Owen's urinary tract. He removed the stents and then did a VCUG (voiding study). One side looked good and voided properly. The other side collected urine in the still large upper part of the ureter and did not void properly. As Dr. Gazak said when he entered the conference room to talk to us after the sugery "It isn't good." He was upset, we were upset. I cried because we were supposed to be done and we are not done. Dr. Gazak had to put the stent back in on the "bad" side. There are evidently a number of options at this juncture. Dr. Gazak said that he plans to proceed conservitavely. He mentioned a few options, but frankly Wes and I were just too shocked and devestated to ask a lot of questions. All I could think to ask him through my tears was, "Do you promise that you can somehow fix this?" Perhaps this was a totally inappropriate thing to ask of him, to ask him to make such a promise. He did however look at me and make the promise. He hugged me and promised me that he would fix it. I know he means it. I know he would not have promised me something that he could not deliver, not with Owen.

What we do know is that Owen is still better off than he was when he was 5 weeks old and first got sick. Dr. Gazak didn't do anything wrong, Owen's ureter just needs more. I just don't happen to know what the more is right now. I do know that Owen is still a happy, healthy Little Man. I know that I am sad, I wanted to be done. We are not done, but somehow or another it will be ok. Owen will continue to fight, we will continue to fight with him, and Dr. Gazak will do his part and keep his promise to fix my son.

Owen will be having a renal pelvic ultrasound and we will learn more about the more next Wednesday.

In other news I am actually in the hospital right now. To make a long story short I have a very bad kidney infection that has failed to respond to two seperate antibiotics. I had another follow-up with my urologist today. The infection has gotten worse and I feel worse. He told me I had officially failed outpatient treatment and had to be admitted to the hospital for treatment. I hate it and this is the last place I want to be, but I do need to consider the safety of my kidney.